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March 12th, 2008


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03:10 pm
 i just had to cancel my surgery i was supposed to have next week. 

some sort of preexisting hold waiting perioud nonsense with my insurance since ive only been with them since november.


devastated. 
i am devastated. 




im so tired of being in such intense pain all the time.
i could handle it when i drank and smoked every day. to be completely honest, the constant pain is one of the myriad of reasons that i did smoke and drink every day. 
i hurt so bad all the time now.


i dont know how im going to stay sober until august hurting this much. yea, august. thats when i get to have surgery now. 
i dont know how im going to do this.


but i will. 




the resignation that i will be living in intense pain for another 4 months is weighing down real hard on me.
and the tide of disappointment is overwhelming.

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